So far, i’m doing a good job. Haha! Though I can’t help but remember how I spent my 18th birthday with you when Janine, Sharla, and I went to the seaside part of the Mall of Asia. Oh, how could I ever forget that? It will stay in my heart forever. And maybe, when the time comes that I finally moved on, my heart would still probably hurt when you have found someone to call as your girlfriend. Nyaha! You’d still be here in my heart even though I know that there won’t be any chance that the two of us would be together. I’ve already accepted that, and I won’t force myself to you anymore:) I just remembered something.. Jimmy: Next time ulit. Sama na natin sila. Sila Cable Ako: Wag naaaa Jimmy: bakit ba ayaw mo isama si Cable? Ako: pano ako makakapag-move on?? Haha! Mean. Sorry. Gusto ko din naman kita isama, kaya lang it’s better this way :) hanggang Hi-Hello at konting usap palang kaya ko :P

How my 2011 went:

January: Celebrated my 18th birthday. Most memorable birthday so far. I celebrated it first with Jerard, which was by accident anddd it was my first time to spend my birthday with the one I love, other than my family, of course. And had a party with my closest friends and family.

February: Talked to my long-time crush and somewhat the love of my life, Christian Bautista, on Valentine’s Eve (haha!) courtesy of Tito Noel Ferrer. woohooo! It was a 10-minute phone call, I think? NVM, at least I had the chance to talk to him on the phone :D

March: Started a business with Levin :D

April: First out-of-town trip with friends. We went to Enchanted Kingdom. It was so much funnnn!!! - First time to have summer classes, learned to be independent :D

May: Slavery!! Ate was on vacation for almost a month so I took care of Ben, helped in the house chores, studyy!! What a tiring month!

June: When ate got back from Bicol, Mama and I went to Davao for a 3-day vacation. It was fun! It was our first time to fly outside Manila with just the two of us. It was soooooooooo much fun. Grabe! - Back to school

July: Tita Lis came to visit. Also Joseph and Kenneth. First time to bond with those two boys with just us teenagers. First time to go home at around 5am during schooldays! Learned how to play Billiards(kinda), and tried Shisha. - Tom, Von, and Ayen’s birthday celebration.

August: Stephanie Joy’s debut :D I love attending parties :D

September: Clarence’s birthday celebration at Trinoma, my choice of restaurant :P Jerard and I have been texting each other the whole day(kinda) which was actually the first time to happen. That made me happy.

October: The most awaited month! Went to Japan for our 15-day vacation :D la la la la la! The most unforgettable vacation so far!!!

November: Back-to-school. Do I need to say something about Andy? Well, there has been an issue between me and Andy… I made an issue. hahaha! Nah, we’re really okay now. I don’t want to know the reason behind those “things” anymore, and I don’t care as to what will happen next. 

December: It has come to an end. No need to elaborate.

My 2011 could’ve been a perfect year for me, but December ruined it. Though I am still thankful to Him for this year. No regrets, Just love. And I want to thank him for, hmm, just being him.

lovequotesrus:

Photo Courtesy: adequategatsby

si mama kasi eh :/

Christmas kwento. Yes, related parin kay Jerard. SI MAMA KASI :/

—-

kagabi kasi dun ako tumabi sa kanila ni Katy. Patulog na ko, biglang nagsalita si mama.

Ma: Nagtext na boyfriend mo?

Ako: Hindi.

Ma: Ay?

Ako: Break na kami.

*silent laugh*

——

kanina, basta napag-usapan namin yung pag-greet greet.

Ma: Binati ka na?

Ako: Hindi

Ma: Tinext mo ba? ako kasi, ako una nagtext eh. haha

Ako: OO!

Ma: Aww. kawawa

Ako: War nga kami

Ma: Hindi pa nga kayo, nag-aaway na kaagad?

HAHAHAHAHA

——

Habang nagliligpit ng pinagkainan.. PINAKAMAGANDANG USAPAN. EVER.

(Ang pangit kasi nung ginawa niyang Leche Flan. I-sserve na niya)

Ako: Ang pangit

Ma: Hoy, wala sa panlabas na anyo yan

Ako: Parang si Katy, pangit, pero..

Ma: Kaya nga Don’t Judge The book By its cover, diba?

Ako: (medyo galit)Yeah. Parang yung mga lalaki, yung mga panglabas ang tinitignan, yung mga magaganda lang.

Ma: Eh bakit bitter ka?

Ako: HAHAHA

Ma: Hindi ka lang binati eh =))

Ako: War nga kami

Ma: Eh bakit?

Ako: Secret.

(After 30 mins. habang nagpupunas ako ng plates, siya nag-aayos ng mga gamot)

Ma: Hindi nga? diba magkasama lang kayo dun sa party? bakit magkaaway kaagad kayo?

Ako: Hahahaha! Joke lang yun. Basta ngaaaaa! It’s complicated!

HAHAHAHA! OKAY, MOMMY! PINAPASAYA MO KO MASYADO =))

Thank You.

Sorry.

I’ll miss you.

and. I LOVE YOU:)

I Love You too much… It Hurts.

By: Somedaydream 

(own version)

Oh, I could just pretend to be with him all day. (Jan. 2)

I could remember the feeling when we first held hands today. (Oct. 2)

Imagine him in his favorite white shirt (wore this 2x)

Smiling at me as if he thinks that I’m the best

I tell you “You and me, sitting on a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G”

I tell him “baby, hear me out, will you marry me tonight?

we’re in this make believe reality

and baby it’s just YOU and ME.”

‘cause when tonight I hold you tight

I wonder if this fantasy is right

‘cause when reality comes to play

I couldn’t make him stay

Hey, daydreamer

I gotta be prepared to leave him in my fantasy

‘cause when it’s over

I gotta make sure that it’s me who’ll be with him

Oh, I could be his soldier, his knight in shining armor.

I’m sure I wanna make him feel how much I love him.

and I wish to God that he can see the world in my eyes

So he can realize that he’s the guy in my mind

And I don’t mind if I don’t make it out alive

‘cause I knew from the start that he’s such a girl killer.

Inspired by : Levin’s video clip :)

I re-tweeted earlier this evening. I just don’t know whether he appreciates everything I do for him or not. It’s hard for me to stop myself from doing whatever it is that I’m doing. Kasi naman, if he doesn’t want them, he should say it DIRECTLY, he’s making it hard for me ‘cause he’s not saying anything. Yes, he did say something but that was a loooooooong time ago. My feelings for him is not that serious, YET, pero I really like him. I need a reaction soooner, please. I can accept rejections naman, I always get that. Though, he should help me move on. What the fuck lang talaga. He’s giving me hope unintentionally! Kung ayaw niya manakit, he should do something, pero siyempre, duh, kasalanan ko kasi ang tanga ko. Umaasa ko sa wala. Galit ako sayo kasi putangina naman, sabihin mo naman kasi kung WALA as in WALA. Lumalabas na kasi parang you’re taking me for granted. Tanggap ka lang ng tanggap and all I can hear is a simple “Thank You”. Oo, masaya ko pag nagpapasalamat ka kasi gusto ko marunong magpasalamat ang isang tao. Pero it’s not enough. When someone gave a stuffed toy to me, my mom said that I shouldn’t have accepted it, ‘cause it’s like I gave him a chance even though there wasn’t. Hindi ko naman binibilang kung ilan na binigay ko sayo, pero naman, sabihin mo nalang “tama na”. Masyado na ko nasasaktan.

Drama.

Whatever.

Wish ko next year, ang makalimutan/mawala na feelings ko para sayo.

First time to spend Christmas without giving gifts maliban sa nabunot ko sa exchange gift. kasi naman, no money! Naubos pera ko nung sembreak XD anyway, ang saya saya. Christmas Party kila Jelyn, super dami ng pagkain, then kantahan and picture-picture, exchange gift, etc. Si Jerard nabunot ko, huwell, magaling ako bumunot kasi :)) joke. kinapa ko yun, adik eh, tinupi kasi ng kung ano-ano yung paper niya, so sa kaniya yung pinaka-gusot na papel. pagkabunot ko, sakto, sa kaniya nga ;) Ang korni lang ng regalo ko kasi Pringles at Bag Tag lang. hindi ko kasi alam ireregalo ko kahit gusto ko ako talaga makabunot sa kanya. ang alam ko lang favorite niya pringles, puro pagkain kasi ang alam ko :/ sana lang nagustuhan niya, hindi naman kasi nagsasabi eh.

Pinabasa ko narin sa kaniya yung birthday letter ko sa kaniya na nakasulat sa planner ni Sharlaloo. hahaha :/ di ko na dapat papakita, pero wala lang. sinabi ko narin sa kaniya itong tumblr link ko. malay ko naman kung titignan nga niya. may karapatan naman din naman kasi siyang mabasa yung mga tungkol sa kaniya para malaman na malinis intensiyon ko :)) corny. okay. wala lang kasi. as always, no reaction. yun lang mahirap eh, laging WALANG REACTION. sabi lang niya “nasa akin pa yung sampung piso na binigay mo” OKAY. hahaha! nice. diba?

okay. ayoko na. pagod na ko. babooosh.

Today is his birthday =) Also Jeann’s :) I was so sleepy last night, I set the alarm at 11:45 so that I could greet him at exactly 12mn. And so I did greet him at exactly 12mn but he said I was 24seconds advance. Then, the alarm was set at around 2am, but I failed to wake up!!! I was supposed to study for our NS exam!!! So there, I sent him a message again, I was waiting for it then I heard my message alert tone, I was so excited to see if he replied, BUT, it was just Jimmy. haha! but it’s okay, Jimmy’s my friend, so we were texting each other, and suddenly, I received a message from him. HURRAY!

Fast forward, I asked him to go to the library, and he did! :”> He played TapTap, aaaaaaaand I showed him the video that Levin made. I’m not sure if he really watched it, I left when I told him to just press the play button.

I’m just so happy that I saw him and I get to talk to him today, and and when I received his first message this morning, I couldn’t breath already.

When I got home, my mom was kinda mad at me ‘cause I didn’t buy our cat, Katy’s, food. Then, later on, she entered and said..

Mama: Uy, Happy Birthday pala! Birthday pala ng boyfriend mo, siguro nag-date kayo, noh?

Ako: Hindi ah

Mama: Kaya ang tagal mo umuwi

Ako: Hindi haha! Pero kanina niyaya(somewhat) niya kami kumain, ‘di lang kami sumama ni Janine kasi hinihintay namin si Sharla.

AWW. I’m also happy ‘cause my mom’s really okay with me liking Jerard this much that’s why I love her and that’s why I’m very open to her, but of course, I still keep some of the details :D

Happy Birthday, Love <3

mga gusto kong i-tweet :))

-Tinatamad pa ko mag-review (halos lahat ng subjects may quiz -__-)

-Malapit na Birthday niya! =) (i want to give him something. wait, ang dami kong gustong iregalo, pero hindi naman ako dapat mag-regalo sakanya. swerte niya, pag naging kami, ang dami kong bibilhin sa kaniyang kung ano-ano. hahaha)

-Naalala ko, ang alam talaga ni Adam at James, si Christian B. boyfriend ko. hahaha! (nung nanonood daw sila dati tapos nakita nila sa TV si Christian, sabi ni Adam “si kuya Christian oh, boyfriend ni ate Debs”. tapos kanina, pinakita ko picture ni Xian Lim sa phone ko, sabi ko boyfriend ko, sabi niya “hindi si kuya Christian yan eh, hindi yan boyfriend mo”, tapos si James kanina din sabi niya “hindi mo na boyfriend si kuya Christian?” hahaha!)

-Malapit na mag Dec. 11 :) (“6 years” na kami ni Ian. harhar!)

-I can’t wait for tomorrow! (magkikita kami eh :P )

-Ang dami kong naaalala. Of course, puro Jerard memories.

-Nakakatuwa kasi may mga nicknames ako na isang tao lang tumatawag sakin. haha! si ano, iba tawag sakin, siya lang tumatawag ng ganun. si ano din =))

K. ayoko na. ang weird ko ba masyado? :p

I am so blessed with the people around me. They keep on making me happy all the time. We, sometimes, encounter some misunderstandings, but at the end of the day, I apologize, or one of us do. Pero madalas, samin ni Janine, ako may kasalanan, so ako nagso-sorry.

Communication, being open to one another, and acceptance are very important in keeping the friendship stronger.

Every semester, I meet new people and I make sure that we will have a good relationship. To name a few, there’s Jimmy, Bernadeth, and Jerard. Even though we haven’t been classmates before, our friendship are still getting better. Jimmy and I often see each other at the library, it has been our “bonding place”. We catch up with each other while studying. I often see Par at some random places in our campus, we text each other, and just like Jimmy, we often do our catching-up sessions at the library. As for Jerard, I send him text messages every now and then. Wait, hindi pala kami masyadong nakakapag-chikahan ni Jerard about life. We’re both busy, so no time to chat. haha! Time conflict, aaaaaand, I’m still hesitant to tell him about stuff, unless I have some very important news or story that will interest him. I’ll text him “may kkwento ko sayo pag nagkita tayo” something like that.

Andy and Onyx (names I used on my previous to hide their identity and would still use it ‘til the time comes that I come up with a good reason to reveal who they really are, though some of my friends knows already) I just met them few months ago and now,we have a good friendly relationship. SOME of my friends doesn’t like them for some unknown reasons (I’m still thinking up to now). Andy and I have been friends even before they met him, and I got to know Onyx because we hang out at the library a lot with just the two of us (We often talk about some random stuff). I don’t let those things affect our friendship. They make me happy in some ways that others can’t see. Andy and I often chat on twitter or facebook.

Speaking of Andy, we’re finally okay now and I’m happy with that. I’m glad to have him back though he is still acting the same and keeps on mentioning some cheesy lines again. I just have to avoid believing everything he say and keep in mind that he’s just playing around, he’s just in his normal self.

I think that’s it for today. I’m too tired to think, I wanna have some sleeep!

sorry, feel ko lang maging madaldal, hayaan niyo, tatahimik na ko after nito, magmmemorize na ko ng 40 formulas. asdfghjkl! seryoso na nga ko sa pag-aaral eh. hahaha! bakit nga ba hindi ako nagrereview sa oblicon?? bukas na, i need to give myself a break, baka mabaliw na ko eh. chos. anyway, ang dami kong gustong sabihin kanina eh. well, eto na. very personal lang na gusto ko mailabas.. warning, may something about jerard again.

sabi ko noon, gusto ko makahanap ng tao na magagawang ilayo yung isip ko kay jerard, yung tipong makakalimutan ko siya, yung feelings ko for him.

nung summer, may naging ka-close ako, classmate ko nung 2ndyr, 2ndsem. summer lang kami nagkausap via twitter&fb. nung namention ko sa kaniyang i failed on one of my subjects kaya nagssummer class ako, siya lang ang katangi-tanging nagsabi na “okay lang yan, kasama sa college life yan” basta, may sinabi siya na super gumaan yung pakiramdam ko. our friendship started nung summer. (itago natin siya sa name na Andy ;) )

last sem, i met a new friend, itago natin siya sa pangalang Onyx. (wtf, sorry, nanonood ako ng binondo girl eh hahaha). dumating yung time na halos everyday na kami nagkakasama, and yes, nakalimutan ko nang nageexist si jerard because of him, pero napapagusapan namin, tinatanong niya ko eh. masaya ko pag kasama ko siya, mabait siya in a way, sinasamahan niya ko eh. basta, i don’t want to elaborate, alam na naming dalawa yun. andun na naman ako sa point na halaaa, malapit na ko ma-fall, pero may bumagsak sa ulo ko at natauhan ako na.. hindi, friends lang. so hanggang ngayon, we’re still friends :)

so balik tayo kay Andy. nagkakausap kami, naging sweet siya, and i thought there’s something going on between the two of us. pero mali eh, imahinasyon ko nanaman. gago pala siya eh, sabi sabi siya ng mga ganung bagay, malamang sa malamang maiisip kong meron nga. tangina. bakit ba kailangan pa niya sabihin yung mga yun, eh ang ganda naman ng friendship namin?? lokohan pala eh. oo, nagusap na kami, well, di naman maayos na paguusap. wala akong natanggap na explanation. sa tingin niya talagang nakontento na ko sa pag-sorry niya? nabawasan nga yung inis ko, pero kulang parin eh.

Andy: …. And sorry talaga.. Bati ba tayo? Okay pa rin ba tayo? PEACE.

ako: yes, i can handle this. don’t worry

those were the exact words. hindi yan lahat, siyempre, saming dalawa nalang yung iba. anyway, akala ko okay. nagkamali ako. hanggang ngayon, hindi parin ako makatingin ng diretso sa kaniya, hindi ko magawang makipagbiruan. I can still feel the pain. oo nga nakalimutan ko si jerard. pero pwede ba?! sa ganitong paraan? kairita lang ah.

hindi ko ginagamit si jerard para sumaya ako or what. iba lang talaga powers niya, na pag nakikita ko siya, ang gaaaaaan ng feeling ko. nawawala lahat ng sakit, mga problema ko nakakalimutan ko. he’s the best. napapasaya din naman ako ng friends ko, pero kasi kinkkwento ko din sa kanila problems ko kaya.. pati sakit nararamdaman ko parin.

yun. sana lang maging okay narin ako kay Andy. ayoko ng ganitong feeling. pag nanonood ako ng binondo girl umiinit na ulo ko eh. lalala.

goodnight.

So far, i’m doing a good job. Haha! Though I can’t help but remember how I spent my 18th birthday with you when Janine, Sharla, and I went to the seaside part of the Mall of Asia. Oh, how could I ever forget that? It will stay in my heart forever. And maybe, when the time comes that I finally moved on, my heart would still probably hurt when you have found someone to call as your girlfriend. Nyaha! You’d still be here in my heart even though I know that there won’t be any chance that the two of us would be together. I’ve already accepted that, and I won’t force myself to you anymore:) I just remembered something.. Jimmy: Next time ulit. Sama na natin sila. Sila Cable Ako: Wag naaaa Jimmy: bakit ba ayaw mo isama si Cable? Ako: pano ako makakapag-move on?? Haha! Mean. Sorry. Gusto ko din naman kita isama, kaya lang it’s better this way :) hanggang Hi-Hello at konting usap palang kaya ko :P

How my 2011 went:

January: Celebrated my 18th birthday. Most memorable birthday so far. I celebrated it first with Jerard, which was by accident anddd it was my first time to spend my birthday with the one I love, other than my family, of course. And had a party with my closest friends and family.

February: Talked to my long-time crush and somewhat the love of my life, Christian Bautista, on Valentine’s Eve (haha!) courtesy of Tito Noel Ferrer. woohooo! It was a 10-minute phone call, I think? NVM, at least I had the chance to talk to him on the phone :D

March: Started a business with Levin :D

April: First out-of-town trip with friends. We went to Enchanted Kingdom. It was so much funnnn!!! - First time to have summer classes, learned to be independent :D

May: Slavery!! Ate was on vacation for almost a month so I took care of Ben, helped in the house chores, studyy!! What a tiring month!

June: When ate got back from Bicol, Mama and I went to Davao for a 3-day vacation. It was fun! It was our first time to fly outside Manila with just the two of us. It was soooooooooo much fun. Grabe! - Back to school

July: Tita Lis came to visit. Also Joseph and Kenneth. First time to bond with those two boys with just us teenagers. First time to go home at around 5am during schooldays! Learned how to play Billiards(kinda), and tried Shisha. - Tom, Von, and Ayen’s birthday celebration.

August: Stephanie Joy’s debut :D I love attending parties :D

September: Clarence’s birthday celebration at Trinoma, my choice of restaurant :P Jerard and I have been texting each other the whole day(kinda) which was actually the first time to happen. That made me happy.

October: The most awaited month! Went to Japan for our 15-day vacation :D la la la la la! The most unforgettable vacation so far!!!

November: Back-to-school. Do I need to say something about Andy? Well, there has been an issue between me and Andy… I made an issue. hahaha! Nah, we’re really okay now. I don’t want to know the reason behind those “things” anymore, and I don’t care as to what will happen next. 

December: It has come to an end. No need to elaborate.

My 2011 could’ve been a perfect year for me, but December ruined it. Though I am still thankful to Him for this year. No regrets, Just love. And I want to thank him for, hmm, just being him.

lovequotesrus:

Photo Courtesy: adequategatsby

si mama kasi eh :/

Christmas kwento. Yes, related parin kay Jerard. SI MAMA KASI :/

—-

kagabi kasi dun ako tumabi sa kanila ni Katy. Patulog na ko, biglang nagsalita si mama.

Ma: Nagtext na boyfriend mo?

Ako: Hindi.

Ma: Ay?

Ako: Break na kami.

*silent laugh*

——

kanina, basta napag-usapan namin yung pag-greet greet.

Ma: Binati ka na?

Ako: Hindi

Ma: Tinext mo ba? ako kasi, ako una nagtext eh. haha

Ako: OO!

Ma: Aww. kawawa

Ako: War nga kami

Ma: Hindi pa nga kayo, nag-aaway na kaagad?

HAHAHAHAHA

——

Habang nagliligpit ng pinagkainan.. PINAKAMAGANDANG USAPAN. EVER.

(Ang pangit kasi nung ginawa niyang Leche Flan. I-sserve na niya)

Ako: Ang pangit

Ma: Hoy, wala sa panlabas na anyo yan

Ako: Parang si Katy, pangit, pero..

Ma: Kaya nga Don’t Judge The book By its cover, diba?

Ako: (medyo galit)Yeah. Parang yung mga lalaki, yung mga panglabas ang tinitignan, yung mga magaganda lang.

Ma: Eh bakit bitter ka?

Ako: HAHAHA

Ma: Hindi ka lang binati eh =))

Ako: War nga kami

Ma: Eh bakit?

Ako: Secret.

(After 30 mins. habang nagpupunas ako ng plates, siya nag-aayos ng mga gamot)

Ma: Hindi nga? diba magkasama lang kayo dun sa party? bakit magkaaway kaagad kayo?

Ako: Hahahaha! Joke lang yun. Basta ngaaaaa! It’s complicated!

HAHAHAHA! OKAY, MOMMY! PINAPASAYA MO KO MASYADO =))

Thank You.

Sorry.

I’ll miss you.

and. I LOVE YOU:)

I Love You too much… It Hurts.

By: Somedaydream 

(own version)

Oh, I could just pretend to be with him all day. (Jan. 2)

I could remember the feeling when we first held hands today. (Oct. 2)

Imagine him in his favorite white shirt (wore this 2x)

Smiling at me as if he thinks that I’m the best

I tell you “You and me, sitting on a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G”

I tell him “baby, hear me out, will you marry me tonight?

we’re in this make believe reality

and baby it’s just YOU and ME.”

‘cause when tonight I hold you tight

I wonder if this fantasy is right

‘cause when reality comes to play

I couldn’t make him stay

Hey, daydreamer

I gotta be prepared to leave him in my fantasy

‘cause when it’s over

I gotta make sure that it’s me who’ll be with him

Oh, I could be his soldier, his knight in shining armor.

I’m sure I wanna make him feel how much I love him.

and I wish to God that he can see the world in my eyes

So he can realize that he’s the guy in my mind

And I don’t mind if I don’t make it out alive

‘cause I knew from the start that he’s such a girl killer.

Inspired by : Levin’s video clip :)

I re-tweeted earlier this evening. I just don’t know whether he appreciates everything I do for him or not. It’s hard for me to stop myself from doing whatever it is that I’m doing. Kasi naman, if he doesn’t want them, he should say it DIRECTLY, he’s making it hard for me ‘cause he’s not saying anything. Yes, he did say something but that was a loooooooong time ago. My feelings for him is not that serious, YET, pero I really like him. I need a reaction soooner, please. I can accept rejections naman, I always get that. Though, he should help me move on. What the fuck lang talaga. He’s giving me hope unintentionally! Kung ayaw niya manakit, he should do something, pero siyempre, duh, kasalanan ko kasi ang tanga ko. Umaasa ko sa wala. Galit ako sayo kasi putangina naman, sabihin mo naman kasi kung WALA as in WALA. Lumalabas na kasi parang you’re taking me for granted. Tanggap ka lang ng tanggap and all I can hear is a simple “Thank You”. Oo, masaya ko pag nagpapasalamat ka kasi gusto ko marunong magpasalamat ang isang tao. Pero it’s not enough. When someone gave a stuffed toy to me, my mom said that I shouldn’t have accepted it, ‘cause it’s like I gave him a chance even though there wasn’t. Hindi ko naman binibilang kung ilan na binigay ko sayo, pero naman, sabihin mo nalang “tama na”. Masyado na ko nasasaktan.

Drama.

Whatever.

Wish ko next year, ang makalimutan/mawala na feelings ko para sayo.

First time to spend Christmas without giving gifts maliban sa nabunot ko sa exchange gift. kasi naman, no money! Naubos pera ko nung sembreak XD anyway, ang saya saya. Christmas Party kila Jelyn, super dami ng pagkain, then kantahan and picture-picture, exchange gift, etc. Si Jerard nabunot ko, huwell, magaling ako bumunot kasi :)) joke. kinapa ko yun, adik eh, tinupi kasi ng kung ano-ano yung paper niya, so sa kaniya yung pinaka-gusot na papel. pagkabunot ko, sakto, sa kaniya nga ;) Ang korni lang ng regalo ko kasi Pringles at Bag Tag lang. hindi ko kasi alam ireregalo ko kahit gusto ko ako talaga makabunot sa kanya. ang alam ko lang favorite niya pringles, puro pagkain kasi ang alam ko :/ sana lang nagustuhan niya, hindi naman kasi nagsasabi eh.

Pinabasa ko narin sa kaniya yung birthday letter ko sa kaniya na nakasulat sa planner ni Sharlaloo. hahaha :/ di ko na dapat papakita, pero wala lang. sinabi ko narin sa kaniya itong tumblr link ko. malay ko naman kung titignan nga niya. may karapatan naman din naman kasi siyang mabasa yung mga tungkol sa kaniya para malaman na malinis intensiyon ko :)) corny. okay. wala lang kasi. as always, no reaction. yun lang mahirap eh, laging WALANG REACTION. sabi lang niya “nasa akin pa yung sampung piso na binigay mo” OKAY. hahaha! nice. diba?

okay. ayoko na. pagod na ko. babooosh.

Today is his birthday =) Also Jeann’s :) I was so sleepy last night, I set the alarm at 11:45 so that I could greet him at exactly 12mn. And so I did greet him at exactly 12mn but he said I was 24seconds advance. Then, the alarm was set at around 2am, but I failed to wake up!!! I was supposed to study for our NS exam!!! So there, I sent him a message again, I was waiting for it then I heard my message alert tone, I was so excited to see if he replied, BUT, it was just Jimmy. haha! but it’s okay, Jimmy’s my friend, so we were texting each other, and suddenly, I received a message from him. HURRAY!

Fast forward, I asked him to go to the library, and he did! :”> He played TapTap, aaaaaaaand I showed him the video that Levin made. I’m not sure if he really watched it, I left when I told him to just press the play button.

I’m just so happy that I saw him and I get to talk to him today, and and when I received his first message this morning, I couldn’t breath already.

When I got home, my mom was kinda mad at me ‘cause I didn’t buy our cat, Katy’s, food. Then, later on, she entered and said..

Mama: Uy, Happy Birthday pala! Birthday pala ng boyfriend mo, siguro nag-date kayo, noh?

Ako: Hindi ah

Mama: Kaya ang tagal mo umuwi

Ako: Hindi haha! Pero kanina niyaya(somewhat) niya kami kumain, ‘di lang kami sumama ni Janine kasi hinihintay namin si Sharla.

AWW. I’m also happy ‘cause my mom’s really okay with me liking Jerard this much that’s why I love her and that’s why I’m very open to her, but of course, I still keep some of the details :D

Happy Birthday, Love <3

mga gusto kong i-tweet :))

-Tinatamad pa ko mag-review (halos lahat ng subjects may quiz -__-)

-Malapit na Birthday niya! =) (i want to give him something. wait, ang dami kong gustong iregalo, pero hindi naman ako dapat mag-regalo sakanya. swerte niya, pag naging kami, ang dami kong bibilhin sa kaniyang kung ano-ano. hahaha)

-Naalala ko, ang alam talaga ni Adam at James, si Christian B. boyfriend ko. hahaha! (nung nanonood daw sila dati tapos nakita nila sa TV si Christian, sabi ni Adam “si kuya Christian oh, boyfriend ni ate Debs”. tapos kanina, pinakita ko picture ni Xian Lim sa phone ko, sabi ko boyfriend ko, sabi niya “hindi si kuya Christian yan eh, hindi yan boyfriend mo”, tapos si James kanina din sabi niya “hindi mo na boyfriend si kuya Christian?” hahaha!)

-Malapit na mag Dec. 11 :) (“6 years” na kami ni Ian. harhar!)

-I can’t wait for tomorrow! (magkikita kami eh :P )

-Ang dami kong naaalala. Of course, puro Jerard memories.

-Nakakatuwa kasi may mga nicknames ako na isang tao lang tumatawag sakin. haha! si ano, iba tawag sakin, siya lang tumatawag ng ganun. si ano din =))

K. ayoko na. ang weird ko ba masyado? :p

I am so blessed with the people around me. They keep on making me happy all the time. We, sometimes, encounter some misunderstandings, but at the end of the day, I apologize, or one of us do. Pero madalas, samin ni Janine, ako may kasalanan, so ako nagso-sorry.

Communication, being open to one another, and acceptance are very important in keeping the friendship stronger.

Every semester, I meet new people and I make sure that we will have a good relationship. To name a few, there’s Jimmy, Bernadeth, and Jerard. Even though we haven’t been classmates before, our friendship are still getting better. Jimmy and I often see each other at the library, it has been our “bonding place”. We catch up with each other while studying. I often see Par at some random places in our campus, we text each other, and just like Jimmy, we often do our catching-up sessions at the library. As for Jerard, I send him text messages every now and then. Wait, hindi pala kami masyadong nakakapag-chikahan ni Jerard about life. We’re both busy, so no time to chat. haha! Time conflict, aaaaaand, I’m still hesitant to tell him about stuff, unless I have some very important news or story that will interest him. I’ll text him “may kkwento ko sayo pag nagkita tayo” something like that.

Andy and Onyx (names I used on my previous to hide their identity and would still use it ‘til the time comes that I come up with a good reason to reveal who they really are, though some of my friends knows already) I just met them few months ago and now,we have a good friendly relationship. SOME of my friends doesn’t like them for some unknown reasons (I’m still thinking up to now). Andy and I have been friends even before they met him, and I got to know Onyx because we hang out at the library a lot with just the two of us (We often talk about some random stuff). I don’t let those things affect our friendship. They make me happy in some ways that others can’t see. Andy and I often chat on twitter or facebook.

Speaking of Andy, we’re finally okay now and I’m happy with that. I’m glad to have him back though he is still acting the same and keeps on mentioning some cheesy lines again. I just have to avoid believing everything he say and keep in mind that he’s just playing around, he’s just in his normal self.

I think that’s it for today. I’m too tired to think, I wanna have some sleeep!

sorry, feel ko lang maging madaldal, hayaan niyo, tatahimik na ko after nito, magmmemorize na ko ng 40 formulas. asdfghjkl! seryoso na nga ko sa pag-aaral eh. hahaha! bakit nga ba hindi ako nagrereview sa oblicon?? bukas na, i need to give myself a break, baka mabaliw na ko eh. chos. anyway, ang dami kong gustong sabihin kanina eh. well, eto na. very personal lang na gusto ko mailabas.. warning, may something about jerard again.

sabi ko noon, gusto ko makahanap ng tao na magagawang ilayo yung isip ko kay jerard, yung tipong makakalimutan ko siya, yung feelings ko for him.

nung summer, may naging ka-close ako, classmate ko nung 2ndyr, 2ndsem. summer lang kami nagkausap via twitter&fb. nung namention ko sa kaniyang i failed on one of my subjects kaya nagssummer class ako, siya lang ang katangi-tanging nagsabi na “okay lang yan, kasama sa college life yan” basta, may sinabi siya na super gumaan yung pakiramdam ko. our friendship started nung summer. (itago natin siya sa name na Andy ;) )

last sem, i met a new friend, itago natin siya sa pangalang Onyx. (wtf, sorry, nanonood ako ng binondo girl eh hahaha). dumating yung time na halos everyday na kami nagkakasama, and yes, nakalimutan ko nang nageexist si jerard because of him, pero napapagusapan namin, tinatanong niya ko eh. masaya ko pag kasama ko siya, mabait siya in a way, sinasamahan niya ko eh. basta, i don’t want to elaborate, alam na naming dalawa yun. andun na naman ako sa point na halaaa, malapit na ko ma-fall, pero may bumagsak sa ulo ko at natauhan ako na.. hindi, friends lang. so hanggang ngayon, we’re still friends :)

so balik tayo kay Andy. nagkakausap kami, naging sweet siya, and i thought there’s something going on between the two of us. pero mali eh, imahinasyon ko nanaman. gago pala siya eh, sabi sabi siya ng mga ganung bagay, malamang sa malamang maiisip kong meron nga. tangina. bakit ba kailangan pa niya sabihin yung mga yun, eh ang ganda naman ng friendship namin?? lokohan pala eh. oo, nagusap na kami, well, di naman maayos na paguusap. wala akong natanggap na explanation. sa tingin niya talagang nakontento na ko sa pag-sorry niya? nabawasan nga yung inis ko, pero kulang parin eh.

Andy: …. And sorry talaga.. Bati ba tayo? Okay pa rin ba tayo? PEACE.

ako: yes, i can handle this. don’t worry

those were the exact words. hindi yan lahat, siyempre, saming dalawa nalang yung iba. anyway, akala ko okay. nagkamali ako. hanggang ngayon, hindi parin ako makatingin ng diretso sa kaniya, hindi ko magawang makipagbiruan. I can still feel the pain. oo nga nakalimutan ko si jerard. pero pwede ba?! sa ganitong paraan? kairita lang ah.

hindi ko ginagamit si jerard para sumaya ako or what. iba lang talaga powers niya, na pag nakikita ko siya, ang gaaaaaan ng feeling ko. nawawala lahat ng sakit, mga problema ko nakakalimutan ko. he’s the best. napapasaya din naman ako ng friends ko, pero kasi kinkkwento ko din sa kanila problems ko kaya.. pati sakit nararamdaman ko parin.

yun. sana lang maging okay narin ako kay Andy. ayoko ng ganitong feeling. pag nanonood ako ng binondo girl umiinit na ulo ko eh. lalala.

goodnight.